People, I haven’t been great about posting on this blog. But that is because I have been spending my time posting on my VLOG! So if you haven’t subscribed already. DO IT! You will get the straight to your inbox right when I hit publish.
And guys, the vlog takes alot of work. It takes me about 5 hours from start to finish. Filming the bits I want, figuring out the topic, editing, adding the graphics. Every.single. week.
And then of course there is the emotional work. Every single time i hit publish on this thing my stomach is in knots. For alot of reasons. First of all, it’s private stuff. My doubts, my family life, my insecurities, my questions. Writing a personal song feels waaaaaay easier than this because I get to edit it, put a melody to it, sculpt it. I usually only get a day to spend on the vlog. And then it goes out with a click.
Second, it makes me put myself out there in a way I am not used to doing. I’m not in my performer self, singing and playing music. I am filming me as I am in my daily life. I don’t usually wear make up but I feel like I should when I watch the vlog, my hair is often a mess, my voice sounds mousy, and in general I watch it back saying – who is that??
I am enjoying the challenge of it. “Living out loud” has been interesting. Keeping to my once a week goal is as satisfying as it is challenging. And it has been a growing experience to have a place to reflect every week on whatever questions arise.
Please check them out and if you have a minute, let me know what you think and if there is a topic you’d like me to cover.